Friday, March 31, 2006
~listening to my favourite song now...
i realised i`ve been blogging alot lately. i discovered that i can only confide in my blog recently. my world is so empty nowadays. i can give advices to the problems my friends are facing and wake them up. all but myself. i`ve learnt to voice my feelings out but i have`nt learnt the profound art of counselling myself. it`s similar to opening the door to allow visitors in but never ever will i step out. i`m so tired. i want to lay myself down to sleep. a peaceful sleep that will never requires me to reopen my eyes again, to see the ugly side of the world. sorry, i don`t need any reprimands or consolations from anyone. i`m insignificant to the world, so just let me be. i`m shivering. i won`t allow my tears to flow and my fears to overturn me. i`m really stretched to the far limit, petrified.
everyday, i reached home in the wee hours. scolded by my parents for upteem times already. bacause they do not understand the reasons behind it. i felt real bad. i want to make myself real tired, till i can`t take it anymore so i can have a better sleep. to drift me away from the reality that`s torturing me. take me away, take me home...
growing up is hard. i`m left with little strength to carry myself through the journey anymore...
5:58 PM
~listening to my favourite song now...
i realised i`ve been blogging alot lately. i discovered that i can only confide in my blog recently. my world is so empty nowadays. i can give advices to the problems my friends are facing and wake them up. all but myself. i`ve learnt to voice my feelings out but i have`nt learnt the profound art of counselling myself. it`s similar to opening the door to allow visitors in but never ever will i step out. i`m so tired. i want to lay myself down to sleep. a peaceful sleep that will never requires me to reopen my eyes again, to see the ugly side of the world. sorry, i don`t need any reprimands or consolations from anyone. i`m insignificant to the world, so just let me be. i`m shivering. i won`t allow my tears to flow and my fears to overturn me. i`m really stretched to the far limit, petrified.
everyday, i reached home in the wee hours. scolded by my parents for upteem times already. bacause they do not understand the reasons behind it. i felt real bad. i want to make myself real tired, till i can`t take it anymore so i can have a better sleep. to drift me away from the reality that`s torturing me. take me away, take me home...
growing up is hard. i`m left with little strength to carry myself through the journey anymore...
posted by SERENiFiED PRiNCESS on 5:58 PM
